So today I get the call from the Cancer Centre to say that according to the blood tests I did this morning, my bloods are too low for treatment tomorrow.
You would think this may not be the worst news ever, after all it means I can at least enjoy Christmas Day is a little more than I would have a day after chemo. However, considering that I felt better today than I have for an entire week, my cold finally gone and I have done all the things I have been told to do; I have rested and had plenty of fluids so I’m not sure where things went wrong. And I’m not sure how much more resting can be done without becoming completely comatosed!
So I guess you can say I’m feeling disappointed and totally frustrated. I just want to get these next 12 treatments over as quickly as possible and this delay is totally unwelcome.
I’ll go back on Friday for bloods again and if they are happy with them, I can have chemo straight after. But not knowing what to expect or what more I can do to get those bloods up, I know it’s not going to be an easy few days.
“You’ve done it before and you can do it now. See the positive possibilities. Redirect the substantial energy of your frustration and turn it into positive, effective, unstoppable determination.” Ralf Marston
“It is hardly possible to build anything if frustration, bitterness and a mood of helplessness prevail.” Lech Walesa
“The fear really hits you. That’s what you feel first. And then it’s the anger and frustration. Part of the problem is how little we understand about the ultimate betrayal of the body when it rebels against itself.” Charles Bronson
“Frustration is a sign I am acting independently. The more you try your own way, the tighter the doors will stay closed.” Joyce Meyer