The Freedom Day long weekend is officially over!
Had a busy week last week with physio and a visit to Dr B. Both good visits and both very pleased with all the healing so far…
Saturday saw Pete and I heading off to Howick for a truly beautiful wedding….was so pleased we were able to make it, even had a chance to do some (gentle) boogie-ing! Congratulations Kath and Kent wishing you both a lifetime of love and laughter.
Had my first shower in 12 days on Saturday – Kath and Kent you should be honoured (and extremely thankful!) 😉
It was exactly how I imagined it would be, complete HEAVEN! It’s amazing what pleasure can be found in everyday small things!
And… as with most pleasurable things, there are generally always some non pleasurable consequences…. yesterday morning after 2 days of showering, it was time to change dressings….
I had everything prepared for Pete.. the hyperfix, the bactroban, the self adhesive tape for the re-strapping, even the rolled up gauze for stuffing my surgical bra. What I wasn’t prepared for was the sense of deja vu…. Pete marveling how well the cuts were healing as he calmly took off the old dressings….. and for me – the wave of nausea, the sudden and instantaneous break out of cold sweat (which may or may not be something to do with the hot flushes), the ringing in my ears (which had nothing to do with wedding bells) and the very real fear of falling down…. A physical reaction to emotional anguish (horror) I am told.
It was a truly humbling and realistic reminder that despite being told how “brave and courageous” I seem to be on the surface, and me almost buying into all of that… not so deep down, I’m actually still just a scared little girl.
“You can discover what your enemy fears most by observing the means he uses to frighten you.” –Eric Hoffer