Today something completely marvelous happened!

No, there was not announcement on CNN about a cure for cancer; the Radiation Bunker didn’t call to say that they had miscalculated the number of sessions I had been allocated and not to bother EVER coming back!; I didn’t win the lotto (despite feeling particularly lucky having found parking in the hospital parkade everyday for the last week and a bit!); I didn’t wake up in a sweat (not induced by the hot flushes) to find that the last 10 months were only an awful nightmare…..

OK, so THAT would have been more than completely marvelous…

But something marvelous DID happen this morning as I was taking my shower….

So there I was washing my fluffy excuse for hair with the (gentle) baby shampoo I’ve been using since it started growing back, when I vaguely noticed that the fluff was feeling a little dry – exactly what normal hair would feel like in Winter or after weeks of radiation. So without giving it a second thought, I reached over and grabbed the conditioner bottle… this may not even seem a like a small step for mankind (or womankind), but for me it was a giant leap towards something I could finally consider almost familiar and normal!

It took a while to get the stuff out – I had to fight my way through the cobwebs and the crust that had clogged the opening …but determination and utter excitement won and I managed to squeeze out a drop!

Sadly a drop was all I actually needed, a complete change from the handful I was using year ago! BUT for the first time in 249 days I was actually using conditioner!

For my hair!

On my head!

So at 9:30 this morning I headed out sporting my newly conditioned hair under my hat for the 6th (and hopefully LAST) week of radiation.

Next week when I get in the car and drive off somewhere I really will have to concentrate very hard on not automatically heading straight for the Radiation Bunker.

After all – I have been conditioned! 😉

2 more to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



“When you look in the mirror, what do you see? Do you see the real you, or what you have been conditioned to believe is you? The two are so, so different. One is an infinite consciousness capable of being and creating whatever it chooses, the other is an illusion imprisoned by its own perceived and programmed limitations.” David Icke


“Home is where you were conditioned.” Darnell Lamont Walker


“I think I am at my best when my hair is short. It’s easier to take care of and more of who I am. Women are conditioned to think we need long hair.” Halle Berry

“We have been conditioned to see the passing of time as an adversary.” Menachem Mendel Schneerson


10 thoughts on “Conditioned!

  1. That’s brilliant Janine. May you have luscious locks in no time. xoxo. I’m more excited about the fact that you may truly only have one radiation session left, woohoo!!! You are in my prayers, as always. 🙂

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  2. We’ve come a long way since late last year when we had to take the clippers to your hair… I know it was exceptionally hard for you to loose your hair but as always, you adapted gracefully to the new challenge and pulled off your new look with fantastic hats, beanies and scarves…
    Your courage and bravery every step of this journey never ceases to amaze me, and I am eternally grateful that all those months ago you chose to FIGHT.
    You’re amazing, don’t ever forget it. xxx

    “I don’t consider myself bald, I’m just taller than my hair.”
    – Lucius Annaeus Seneca –

    “I love having my hair back. It is so important to how you feel, how you dress, how you look.”
    Delta Goodrem

    “You have to get hurt. That’s how you learn. The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. Because they’ve decided that they’re not going to let anything hold them down, they’re showing the world who’s the boss.”
    – Anon –


  3. Such progress! Amazing how important the little things can be, and equally amazing is your capacity to find the silver lining, and not just the one in your hair….would we ever have thought that conditioner = Joy?


  4. Something we take for granted everyday! Yet it can mean the world to someone without us being aware of it. Thank you for sharing your journey …. it really has given me perspective of the challenges so many people face on a daily basis! You are an amazing person – and the grace that you are fighting this battle is an absolute inspiration to me!!

    “Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary.” Gerard Way

    “Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have – life itself.”Walter Anderson


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